i stumbled upon you on twitter and WOAH your work is pretty cool 
awesum website..... keep up the gud work 
this website looks so cool! i really want to make a webiste myself and just so happened to stumble across yours when looking at the neocities main page! Also ive seen some of your tutorials and they really useful
thank u so much
hi derrek, hope you're doing well!
just read blog B-03... i totally feel you. on being multidisciplinary, internal pressure, failure, process, everything... these doubts are particularly present in our age range, but ultimately & universally it's what dictates how anyone lives their life, right?
potential is a finicky thing to ruminate about, either potential failure or success; the single common denominator between these two will always be action, which, even with planning, feels like guessing white noise a lot of the time... still, from what i've seen you *do*, it's hard to imagine if there's even a limit! i'm quite thankful for your art, comics, animations (i totally loved PEMDAS, so cute), music, videos -- your CSP tutorials are quite helpful, even though i'm still a total shakespeare monkey trying to actually do something with the knowledge i took out of them, hehe...
i'm sure there are ideas on the back of your mind that are exponentially more complex, inspiring, elaborate than everything i've mentioned combined. i think that time and process will make these all quite doable.
things unravel day by day... if you remind yourself of the process often enough, i think even these pangs of doubt and moodiness will have a sense of purpose. it took a long time for it to work on me, but i have to admit i'm starting to feel it; partly because there's artists like you around, also working and figuring stuff out.
as far as creative pressure goes, i feel as if it shouldn't come from the worry of doing something (or doing it well [or not]), but how much perseverance & grit you have in doing it well. it feels like a minuscule distinction, but it is important! pressure should boost you. it's not like the time that has passed and the challenges you're facing will ever leave your mind... but you'll be able to look at them less like little worrywarts in your head, and more like elements in the project, just like the aspect ratio, tempo, brushes and deadlines are... hopefully, this doesn't sound like total nonsense 
when i saw the 3D models for your 'cool 3ds games', my heart felt like exploding in trillions of bits, it really made me happy... i want to do something cool like that. that's the pressure i think of.
(though of course, outside the creative context, i'm still a total moron in dealing with pressure & stuff, lol.)
at the end of the day, i know just as much as anyone else, but i think things will turn out good. keep trying! i hope you have a great day 
thank u so much for ur support and kind words 
we gotta push on and keep goin... hope to come across ur work!! u sound awesome
your art is sooooo cool and shawsome... whens that album coming out tho 
cool
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